sunset, last night at a beach house, run to grab my board to get one last surf in. when i return, waves are now coming in huge from a new direction. so big they're draining and flooding the reef repeatedly, exposing/jostling a giant clay god. then i see that the waves have even uprooted the statue of liberty - she is adrift, hitting against the reef. she becomes animated, looks at me, points at me, then at the water. get in there, tom-A-hawk.
i also dreamt i had an arguement with someone for throwing an ukulele at me.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
hau'oli makahiki hou kakou!
the 'wintery' hawaiian weather (rain, wind, cool temps) has sparked that old creative impulse i get when i spend time indoors feeling cozy and safe from the elements, even here in the tropics ... thinking about creativity, different ways i've kept myself creatively inspired and engaged over the years. i've found myself in a job that could possibly end up being the last and main career of my life. it is a potentially secure, reassuring feeling; but as a longtime believer in some form of 'alternative' culture i'm also feeling a little stifled, a little complacent - like i've stopped searching, stopped trying. haven't played guitar in a long time. not surfing and not working out seem to be part of it too. i feel like i'm rapidly turning into THAT grownup.
i've made the 42-almost-43-year-old's new year's resolution to get back to the gym and back in the water; for my physical health, obviously, but also to help literally get the creative juices flowing, stir myself up. i'm remembering that warm glow of endorphins after a workout, how it seemed to cast a golden light and balm on everything, even your thoughts. a fleeting idea you may have dismissed in a flatter moment takes on new depth, detail, possibility. exploring the idea brings that familiar feeling of pleasure from the internal reward system. our bodies, our brains are supposed to work like this, on a regular basis.
so tonight i'm trying to blow on the coals of my imagination. imagining myself physically active on a regular basis in the new year, yes, but i'm also going to try to do one or more creative things, tonight.
i've made the 42-almost-43-year-old's new year's resolution to get back to the gym and back in the water; for my physical health, obviously, but also to help literally get the creative juices flowing, stir myself up. i'm remembering that warm glow of endorphins after a workout, how it seemed to cast a golden light and balm on everything, even your thoughts. a fleeting idea you may have dismissed in a flatter moment takes on new depth, detail, possibility. exploring the idea brings that familiar feeling of pleasure from the internal reward system. our bodies, our brains are supposed to work like this, on a regular basis.
so tonight i'm trying to blow on the coals of my imagination. imagining myself physically active on a regular basis in the new year, yes, but i'm also going to try to do one or more creative things, tonight.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
i dreamt about my ex last night. it was a variation on the dream i've had about him since the early days of our nearly 15-year relationship: i am in a social situation with him, and he does not want to be with me. this dream usually includes the detail that there is a cool/fun/sexy group that he is with, and i am not allowed to join.
yesterday tony and i were walking on kuhio looking for a cab after the beach. something drew me down that old route from the duke statue, across on uluniu and to the kuhio village. for what felt like the first time i've gone past the place since we split, i saw lights on in the studio apartment we shared, knew he was home.
next month will mark one year since he asked me not to contact him anymore.
yesterday tony and i were walking on kuhio looking for a cab after the beach. something drew me down that old route from the duke statue, across on uluniu and to the kuhio village. for what felt like the first time i've gone past the place since we split, i saw lights on in the studio apartment we shared, knew he was home.
next month will mark one year since he asked me not to contact him anymore.
Friday, September 10, 2010
A post from my sister Pam on Facebook today:
"In recognizing the tragedy that was '9/11' and the sensitive feelings that surround the day AND the site itself: I can only imagine the continuing pain that exists in the lives of those who lost so much on that terrible day. OPINION / BTW: burning Korans and protesting Islamic Centers represent the kind of simple-minded, jingoistic mentalities which incited the kind of hatred that caused 9/11 in the first place.
"We are not at war against Islam. We are fighting to dissolve the power that terrorist organizations, many who FALSELY USE the banner of Islam to promote their own agenda, have around this world. In this fight, we need all the allies we can get, which especially includes the overwhelming majority of the people of Islam. They have the most power to influence their brothers and sisters to reject the extremist’s twisted views."
And I might add to this my own OPINION / BTW: The mistrust, suspicion and judgement that many Americans hold against Muslims may be part of why many Muslims, in an instinctual effort to protect themselves from persecution, remain silent to avoid becoming a target. I think many of us in marginalized / maligned communities have been guilty of this kind of silence at one point or another in our lives, and we all have to work together to overcome it!
"We are not at war against Islam. We are fighting to dissolve the power that terrorist organizations, many who FALSELY USE the banner of Islam to promote their own agenda, have around this world. In this fight, we need all the allies we can get, which especially includes the overwhelming majority of the people of Islam. They have the most power to influence their brothers and sisters to reject the extremist’s twisted views."
And I might add to this my own OPINION / BTW: The mistrust, suspicion and judgement that many Americans hold against Muslims may be part of why many Muslims, in an instinctual effort to protect themselves from persecution, remain silent to avoid becoming a target. I think many of us in marginalized / maligned communities have been guilty of this kind of silence at one point or another in our lives, and we all have to work together to overcome it!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
while all you leather sluts are at the folsom circuit party on saturday 9/25, tom-A-hawk will be fulfilling his 3-year dream of seeing
dirty projectors, at
the fillmore no less, then it's off to
slim's for
blowoff with big daddy bob mould ... yay!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
aloha kaua from midsummer hawaii! i'm in the middle of a three-week run of the show i'm in @ work - a "follies"-style revue directed by the legendary, notorious, one-and-only jack cione. after getting through my stage jitters on opening night, i really am having a blast; but, i'm also still kind of shaking my head in disbelief at where my path has taken me over the last three years. the other cast members have been very supportive and i'm getting great feedback from the audiences ... the experience has absolutely transformed me, in its own funny way.
that being said, i AM looking forward to finishing our run next weekend, leaving behind the performance anticipation that's been humming in the background for weeks, and finally being able to fully relax into a summer mode. more specifically, of course, to get my summer surf groove back. now, in my ongoing surf versus turf dilemma, i have to say that my 'turf' activity - the show - completely takes up any 'surf' slack i may be fretting over, and i actually have gotten myself to waikiki a few times to rent a board for $5 from surfboard tom [who used to give our gay surf club a group discount at one of the main, legit beachboy stands back in the day], and enjoy some 'good fun' waves at canoes. once i even ran into my ex as i was getting out of the water and he was going in - was nice to have surfing bring us together again like that, just like it used to.
but south shore wave season is upon us, and it looks like there's a nice little swell rolling through this weekend: 3'-7'+ faces today, solid 3'-5' tomorrow, slightly kona [southerly] winds at a very gentle 5-10mph, so i see a sunday surf in my very near future, "sCrunGE!" friends!
that being said, i AM looking forward to finishing our run next weekend, leaving behind the performance anticipation that's been humming in the background for weeks, and finally being able to fully relax into a summer mode. more specifically, of course, to get my summer surf groove back. now, in my ongoing surf versus turf dilemma, i have to say that my 'turf' activity - the show - completely takes up any 'surf' slack i may be fretting over, and i actually have gotten myself to waikiki a few times to rent a board for $5 from surfboard tom [who used to give our gay surf club a group discount at one of the main, legit beachboy stands back in the day], and enjoy some 'good fun' waves at canoes. once i even ran into my ex as i was getting out of the water and he was going in - was nice to have surfing bring us together again like that, just like it used to.
but south shore wave season is upon us, and it looks like there's a nice little swell rolling through this weekend: 3'-7'+ faces today, solid 3'-5' tomorrow, slightly kona [southerly] winds at a very gentle 5-10mph, so i see a sunday surf in my very near future, "sCrunGE!" friends!
Friday, April 09, 2010
since i moved to kaimuki it's been more difficult to get myself out surfing. when tony asked me what i wanted to do for my birthday this year my immediate answer was to spend a long weekend at a hotel in waikiki and surf every day, like i used to do. that's what we did, and it was great, but my birthday, february 8th, was the last time i went surfing. turns out there is a world of difference between living within walking distance to your break and living far enough away that a vehicle is required to get you and your board to the water.
i have access to a truck for the time being and i still don't go. i think my challenge now is to grow my relationship to the ocean and my sport into something different from what it was for so long: the backbone of my relationship with steve, who was my partner for 15 years, now my ex. i got used to surfing being the thing that defined and bonded us, and i was accustomed to the way we went about it. making the choice to leave that relationship ultimately meant cutting myself off from that lifestyle, and that lifestyle WAS hawaii to me for so long. now every time i go out it's a new, almost unfamiliar experience again; actually, finally being in the water is a comforting relief - it's the getting there that i'm having trouble with.
when i first started drifting away from surfing frequently, it was the rainy winter of 08/09. i was getting my garden started in aina haina and explained, to myself as much if not more than to others, that i was taking a break from 'surf' to work on 'turf' ... it was catchy and it worked. i was, after all building a beautiful vegetable garden with an ocean view, and i don't really like to surf in the rain. in the time since then my new relationship with tony took off faster than i ever planned or expected, and i've been able to extend the 'turf' concept to include all the hard work we've done over the last year to find and 'build' a place for ourselves. first things first, and we've done pretty well so far. i'm in love with our home, which is, despite the lack of a true 'yard,' and no offense to my parents or my ex, the nicest place i've ever lived.
since we started settling down here we have started getting back to the beach. i haven't been surfing, but i've been getting in the water regularly and that's really what it's all about: swimming with angelfish and rolling around in the shorebreak, relaxing on the sand with beach lunches + beers. we go to kahala beach and look at the sweep of ocean and mountains from diamond head and black's point past koko head to maunalani heights and say, "this is our neighborhood." we go to waikiki and mix with awestruck, elated and sometimes very cute half-naked tourists and say, "this is where we live."
so i realize i AM growing my relationship to the ocean and hawaii. it IS transforming from what was an idealized daydream of a distant escape to what is now a reality i wake up to every day. all along as i've observed the distance that has grown between me and surfing - the core reason i moved to hawaii in the first place - i've never gotten down on myself too much, i think because i know that the distance is made of all the other good things i'm growing for myself here. i have faith that i will return to the surf when i'm ready, and when that happens, crossing the distance won't be a challenge, but a joy.
i have access to a truck for the time being and i still don't go. i think my challenge now is to grow my relationship to the ocean and my sport into something different from what it was for so long: the backbone of my relationship with steve, who was my partner for 15 years, now my ex. i got used to surfing being the thing that defined and bonded us, and i was accustomed to the way we went about it. making the choice to leave that relationship ultimately meant cutting myself off from that lifestyle, and that lifestyle WAS hawaii to me for so long. now every time i go out it's a new, almost unfamiliar experience again; actually, finally being in the water is a comforting relief - it's the getting there that i'm having trouble with.
when i first started drifting away from surfing frequently, it was the rainy winter of 08/09. i was getting my garden started in aina haina and explained, to myself as much if not more than to others, that i was taking a break from 'surf' to work on 'turf' ... it was catchy and it worked. i was, after all building a beautiful vegetable garden with an ocean view, and i don't really like to surf in the rain. in the time since then my new relationship with tony took off faster than i ever planned or expected, and i've been able to extend the 'turf' concept to include all the hard work we've done over the last year to find and 'build' a place for ourselves. first things first, and we've done pretty well so far. i'm in love with our home, which is, despite the lack of a true 'yard,' and no offense to my parents or my ex, the nicest place i've ever lived.
since we started settling down here we have started getting back to the beach. i haven't been surfing, but i've been getting in the water regularly and that's really what it's all about: swimming with angelfish and rolling around in the shorebreak, relaxing on the sand with beach lunches + beers. we go to kahala beach and look at the sweep of ocean and mountains from diamond head and black's point past koko head to maunalani heights and say, "this is our neighborhood." we go to waikiki and mix with awestruck, elated and sometimes very cute half-naked tourists and say, "this is where we live."
so i realize i AM growing my relationship to the ocean and hawaii. it IS transforming from what was an idealized daydream of a distant escape to what is now a reality i wake up to every day. all along as i've observed the distance that has grown between me and surfing - the core reason i moved to hawaii in the first place - i've never gotten down on myself too much, i think because i know that the distance is made of all the other good things i'm growing for myself here. i have faith that i will return to the surf when i'm ready, and when that happens, crossing the distance won't be a challenge, but a joy.
Sunday, April 04, 2010
i've been telling myself that i'm going to write a real, live, full-format 'blog post this spring, and here it is. born of the type of blustery, stay-indoors night that used to inspire them back in minneapolis ... plus i'm listening to the current. =]
the wind and the rain are expressing the same dynamic between winter + summer, cold + hot that always marks this time of year.
fully expressed weather like this bonds me to my place, unifies my neighborhood in a common mood, a shared experience.
as this bond grows, i have been slowly growing my enthusiasm for the garden, now a carefully distributed collection of container plants: out back a collection of many different types of orchid arranged with lau'ae and bromeliad growing out of a log among other plants, under a row of bonsai with a buddha theme on the top of the backing wall, all visible from our bedroom window ... up front a group of prickly desert sentinels guards the front door - tall leaf-crowned cactus, large, just-bloomed aloe, recently re-potted lime.
the wind and the rain are expressing the same dynamic between winter + summer, cold + hot that always marks this time of year.
fully expressed weather like this bonds me to my place, unifies my neighborhood in a common mood, a shared experience.
as this bond grows, i have been slowly growing my enthusiasm for the garden, now a carefully distributed collection of container plants: out back a collection of many different types of orchid arranged with lau'ae and bromeliad growing out of a log among other plants, under a row of bonsai with a buddha theme on the top of the backing wall, all visible from our bedroom window ... up front a group of prickly desert sentinels guards the front door - tall leaf-crowned cactus, large, just-bloomed aloe, recently re-potted lime.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Friday, August 07, 2009
Lots of bright
lush fruit in the
nose, ripe but
not cooked;
some game +
spice as well, +
even banana.
This carries
though on the
palate; juicy
cherries and plums,
but not jammy or
sweet. Smoky
tea notes, soft
integrated
tannins. Long
finish. Really
good, especially
for the price,
drinking very well
now.
lush fruit in the
nose, ripe but
not cooked;
some game +
spice as well, +
even banana.
This carries
though on the
palate; juicy
cherries and plums,
but not jammy or
sweet. Smoky
tea notes, soft
integrated
tannins. Long
finish. Really
good, especially
for the price,
drinking very well
now.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
status update >
jcat has 1 more
session @ his
creating happiness
seminar then he
has tues free again.
YIPPIE!
session @ his
creating happiness
seminar then he
has tues free again.
YIPPIE!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
from: tia >
>FRUITFLY 2mrw
nite fri jun 19 @
39hotel w/ local
girl NYC
transplant DJ Kim
Ann Foxman (of
Hercules & Love
Affair) ...
nite fri jun 19 @
39hotel w/ local
girl NYC
transplant DJ Kim
Ann Foxman (of
Hercules & Love
Affair) ...
Sunday, May 17, 2009
as i was walking to the beach yesterday, i saw a small clear plastic bag on the ground. i walked a couple steps past it, then turned around and picked it up. i walked a bit more, then i saw some garbage cans at the top of someone's driveway. i walked a couple steps past them, then turned around and tossed the plastic bag into one. when i turned back to keep walking, there was a small mango that had fallen from a tree on the ground in front of me. i picked it up and kept walking. yes, i think hawai'i was thanking me for picking up a piece of rubbish. thank you, hawai'i !
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
i just updated the link for " 'sCrunGE!' online: 2001-2006 " under 'cliquey' in the right sidebar on this page ... i built my 'blog on a free, dorky msn groups page and even though i don't use it as an active 'blog anymore since i moved to blogger in '06, i had it lovingly organized and accessible as a time-capsule of that era. then early this year i got an email from msn telling me they were closing down their groups service. i kind of had to know it was going to happen at some point but i thought - i don't know, it IS msn ... anyway, so i followed their recommendation and 'migrated' my site over to a new free service called 'multiply.' it took a few tries and a little coordination with their service staff but i finally got it done. so now the old 'sCrunGE!' is still pretty much preserved - but it's a mess. it's like they took a file cabinet full of carefully ordered documents and dumped them all into a box. the new link i've provided gets you to the best starting point to explore my old musings [go all the way to the bottom of the page to click into more pages], and i'm trying to look on the bright side by appreciating how the experience is now much less linear, creating the opportunity to discover unexpected, forgotten, or previously overlooked gems from the mind of tom-A-hawk past ... enjoy.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
from: antonio >
Fun; fun; fun:
that should be
your motto
today.
Unessential
chores or duties
should be
postponed for
another day!
that should be
your motto
today.
Unessential
chores or duties
should be
postponed for
another day!
Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Friday, April 03, 2009
status update >
Phillip thinks
"Iowa, I didn't
know you had it
in you. Perhaps I
will complain less
as I drive
through ... ''
"Iowa, I didn't
know you had it
in you. Perhaps I
will complain less
as I drive
through ... ''
status update >
Kelly-O reports
the Iowa
Supreme Court
unamimously
struck down the
state's gay
marriage ban
today ...
the Iowa
Supreme Court
unamimously
struck down the
state's gay
marriage ban
today ...
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
status update >
Phillip couldn't be
more excited
about da Rock da
Garden lineup
announcement
at 4pm ... Mary
Lucia, don't let
me down !
more excited
about da Rock da
Garden lineup
announcement
at 4pm ... Mary
Lucia, don't let
me down !
Monday, March 23, 2009
status update >
Phillip is starting
the No Booze, No
Caffeine, No
Meat, No
Sleeping in
challenge:
http://howsaboutlivingbetter.blogspot.com ...
the No Booze, No
Caffeine, No
Meat, No
Sleeping in
challenge:
http://howsaboutlivingbetter.blogspot.com ...
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
status update >
Michael Cain's @
da Capitol +
teachers brought
students 2 an
anti-gay hate
rally "4 da lord" +
I feel sick 2 my
soul.
da Capitol +
teachers brought
students 2 an
anti-gay hate
rally "4 da lord" +
I feel sick 2 my
soul.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
from: antonio >
If it feels like
nothin is goin
according 2 plan
take a 2nd look,
you'll find that
progress is being
made.
nothin is goin
according 2 plan
take a 2nd look,
you'll find that
progress is being
made.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
quiche-off mondays
this week:
pancetta w/
chard + gruyere,
garden pesto w/
roasted tomato
+ parmesan, au
fromage w/
scratch crust
from mc .
pancetta w/
chard + gruyere,
garden pesto w/
roasted tomato
+ parmesan, au
fromage w/
scratch crust
from mc .
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
down down do your grandma dance
check out mrs. wong - a resident at the retirement place where i work - over the holidays with family, showing off the new moves she learned from my co-worker connie ... sista can whip it !
then compare and contrast with this clip mc found as a charming companion piece -
it's kind of a tough call, but i think mrs. wong still wins ...
then compare and contrast with this clip mc found as a charming companion piece -
it's kind of a tough call, but i think mrs. wong still wins ...
Saturday, January 03, 2009
this just in from da strib ...
"...it appears that Franken’s lead is now larger than the number of ballots left to be counted..."
tom-A-hawk's top albums of '08 !
[thanx phil for inspiring me to pull it together]
bon iver - for emma, forever ago
atlas sound - Let the Blind Lead Those Who Can See but Cannot Feel
mgmt - Oracular Spectacular
sleeping states - there the open spaces
cool kids - The Bake Sale [EP]
hercules + love affair - Hercules and Love Affair
fleet foxes - Fleet Foxes
helio sequence - Keep Your Eyes Ahead
deerhunter - Microcastle
yeasayer - All Hour Cymbals
santogold - Santogold
land of talk - Some Are Lakes
burial - untrue
ravonettes - lust lust lust
HEALTH - HEALTH
vampire weekend - vampire weekend
dengue fever - venus on earth [+ escape from dragon house]
bon iver - for emma, forever ago
atlas sound - Let the Blind Lead Those Who Can See but Cannot Feel
mgmt - Oracular Spectacular
sleeping states - there the open spaces
cool kids - The Bake Sale [EP]
hercules + love affair - Hercules and Love Affair
fleet foxes - Fleet Foxes
helio sequence - Keep Your Eyes Ahead
deerhunter - Microcastle
yeasayer - All Hour Cymbals
santogold - Santogold
land of talk - Some Are Lakes
burial - untrue
ravonettes - lust lust lust
HEALTH - HEALTH
vampire weekend - vampire weekend
dengue fever - venus on earth [+ escape from dragon house]
Friday, December 26, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
status update
Kimberly had to
remind herself
how to dance
with her bike
through the
snow after a
large snowfall.
remind herself
how to dance
with her bike
through the
snow after a
large snowfall.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
status update
Quinnten
wonders what
other drinks are
made with this
winters' booze of
choice, Whiskey?
wonders what
other drinks are
made with this
winters' booze of
choice, Whiskey?
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008
Saturday, September 06, 2008
From: surfline >
The overwhelming consensus among South Shore locals is that the summer of 2008 goes down as the best and most consistent seasons in decades. After last year¹s extended wave drought, anything would have looked good, and despite some funky winds, surfers enjoyed day after day after day of head high to well overhead bombs from Sandy Beach to Yokohama Bay, and the vibe on the beach and in the water was great as everyone got their fill. Heck, even the Bowls guys were giving away set waves!!!
***
right on, bros ... was a great summer to learn my new break.
***
right on, bros ... was a great summer to learn my new break.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Monday, September 01, 2008
From: kdog >
late summer show wrap -
Kdogg is seeing
radiohead in
ggpark tonight!
omg
[8/22-11:55am HST]
Omg the
walkmen!
[8/23-3:04pm HST]
greetings
fromTom petty
live in gg park!
[8/23-5:18pm HST]
Omg stars!
[8/24-11:16am HST]
STARS throwing
white roses into
crowd-so cute
[8/24-11:36am HST]
BROKENSOCIALSC
ENE!
[8/24-2:05PM HST]
exhausted from
a near perfect
sunday
[8/25-3:29pm HST]
!!! live @
independent
[8/27-7:19pm HST]
***
thanx k !
look for
tom-A-hawk live
reports from a
neighborhood
block party
near you -
coming soon!
Kdogg is seeing
radiohead in
ggpark tonight!
omg
[8/22-11:55am HST]
Omg the
walkmen!
[8/23-3:04pm HST]
greetings
fromTom petty
live in gg park!
[8/23-5:18pm HST]
Omg stars!
[8/24-11:16am HST]
STARS throwing
white roses into
crowd-so cute
[8/24-11:36am HST]
BROKENSOCIALSC
ENE!
[8/24-2:05PM HST]
exhausted from
a near perfect
sunday
[8/25-3:29pm HST]
!!! live @
independent
[8/27-7:19pm HST]
***
thanx k !
look for
tom-A-hawk live
reports from a
neighborhood
block party
near you -
coming soon!
Friday, August 29, 2008
my macbook is still partially charged with free solar electricity from da petes' farm in ulupalakua, upcountry maui. went for a long weekend retreat, extending the surfmonk metaphor to their remote mountainside enclave, for all practical purposes a monastery, as far as i was concerned ... sank gratefully into cool, almost chilly nights cozy in bed alone. communed with the fruit trees, flowers, pigs, the horse; but especially the dogs, some of whom came lovingly to me from my dreams: the big black dog and the big white dog, who in my dream turned from one to the other, appeared on maui side by side before me, begging their alms of affection, nurturing my spirit in return. came on the heels of a night pilgrimage a couple weeks before, up to the top of makapu'u to view the perseid meteor shower, the elusive pleasure of stars shooting across the heavens. now it is late august already and feels like it, even here in hawai'i. the angle of the sun is unmistakable. surfed with turtles today.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
working on a self-imposed surfmonk existence - writing in my dream journal as i drink my morning coffee, surfing, working on my new recording, writing 'blog entries, defrosting food - well, until my next paycheck anyway ... fed my last $2 to the lucky lions on hotel street during the 888 olympic block party in chinatown on friday. still wriggle inside with pleasure when i remember the visceral experience of having firecrackers going off as the lion nibbled up my body and took the bill from my giddy hand with a hidden body part into its hot, humid mouth ... ! made for a heightened state of consciousness with which to witness the olympic opening ceremonies at 8:08 ... 'what channel is it on???' asks beefy keali'i @ ke kai's. '... eight ... !!!' i tell him ...
needless to say, the ceremony was a heightened state of consciousness unto itself, so gorgeously massive and mesmerizingly perfect that i could not help but feel like i was witnessing an era-defining moment in the history of civilization; as china demonstrated, to a worldwide audience, its cultural power and vast potential.
after i sent out my 'happy 888' texts i got one back from jason that said -
Aw.... Thx.
Something
auspicious has
gotta happen
today. Oh wait,
I'm not Chinese. ;)
i replied -
da whole world is
chinese 2day !
[or at least it will
b someday
soon...]
don't you think ... ?
well, gotta go do xigong ...
^__^
needless to say, the ceremony was a heightened state of consciousness unto itself, so gorgeously massive and mesmerizingly perfect that i could not help but feel like i was witnessing an era-defining moment in the history of civilization; as china demonstrated, to a worldwide audience, its cultural power and vast potential.
after i sent out my 'happy 888' texts i got one back from jason that said -
Aw.... Thx.
Something
auspicious has
gotta happen
today. Oh wait,
I'm not Chinese. ;)
i replied -
da whole world is
chinese 2day !
[or at least it will
b someday
soon...]
don't you think ... ?
well, gotta go do xigong ...
^__^
Friday, August 08, 2008
From: kung >
Joyeux le jour de
trois huits. Hope
it's going well.
Did u make 8
wishes? One of
mine already
came true
trois huits. Hope
it's going well.
Did u make 8
wishes? One of
mine already
came true
From: baby G >
Doug + Stephen
are designing a
t-shirt for Kelly
for the State
Fair. It will be
baby blue and
say:
are designing a
t-shirt for Kelly
for the State
Fair. It will be
baby blue and
say:
CARNI
WHORE
Thursday, August 07, 2008
as i wait for the bus on kalanianaole, as i haul my recycling by hand and foot to aina haina elementary school, as i pick up my self-mandated minimum of one piece of rubbish from kawaikui beach park every time i visit [even when i have a surfboard under my arm], as i do these things i am subject to a dual sensation of contentment and sadness; the contentment of feeling like i'm doing my small part to add to the collective solution, the sadness of feeling like i'm the only one doing so, as new litter appears every time i visit the beach park, as my roommates thoughtlessly throw their recyclables in the rubbish, as the endless stream of one-passenger cars speeds past me on kalanianaole.
is this sensation just bourgeois guilt?
is my contentment self-serving?
is my sadness hypocritical?
is this sensation just bourgeois guilt?
is my contentment self-serving?
is my sadness hypocritical?
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Saturday, August 02, 2008
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